currently reading a fic about two people who got really close and then had to go separate ways and currently one character is angsting about getting back in touch with the other one because he thinks he knows how it goes, you make the smalltalk and then you talk about a couple great things and then it trails off and you do the welp, nice talking email and then nothing ever again.
and it just hurts me and makes me angry because is that how people actually think? is that how people actually live? I have friends who I don’t talk to for years at a time, okay? But just because I’ve not recently emailed them or chatted or facebook whateve the fucked them doesn’t mean i wouldn’t, at a moment’s notice, talk about something with them, give them advice, let them know I care about their happiness….
Like okay I go in phases, you know? Sometimes I’m all gregarious and talking about everything to everyone and sometimes I clam up and give no shits and want nothing more than to curl up into a ball and never deal with other humans again. But neither of those things last. And I don’t stop wanting to know someone for the long term just because the current topic of conversation has run out.
Like Cordelia, who has gone completely MIA since, christ, sometime this fall, I have no doubt that once she digs herself back out of whatever she’s doing that I’ll be just as engrossed in conversation and writing with her as I ever was… Or Tristyn, whom I have loved since we were nine years old and never once stopped, we went YEARS during college barely exchanging a, you know, a terse email or anything, but I know (and I hope you know, tristyn) that I fully intend to always, ALWAYS be her friend, and always be happy to hear from her…
It just bugs the everloving shit out of me, that people can’t just be comfortable being *quiet* with each other. That my affection remains constant seems to be a complete ANOMALY. Do people really just stop caring like that? Do people really think, when I’m done talking to them about the current topic, that I no longer am glad for their existence?
I am glad, I am. I was glad and I will be glad and whatever other conjugations you want.
